I have spent the past couple of years riding the roller coasters of life. I want to teach people about life and about death. I’m no expert in either one. I’m just an observer, an adventurer, a traveler like everyone else, trying to get by on lent time, trying to find my purpose, trying to find happiness, trying to be successful, the same exact things that everyone in this world is trying to do.
And on this path toward my goals to where I truly want to be, I have fall many times and gotten right back up again. I have met amazingly kind hearted people and had bad friends. I have fallen in love and had my heart broken numerous times. I have failed at work and at school but I have also found many successes and luxuries. I have traveled, gotten lost, found myself and answers in all the wrong places.
I have survived illnesses, surgeries, crashes, fights, a jack of all trades, a lot of everything. It has taken blood, sweat and tears to get to where I am right now. And a lot of it, I willingly admit, was my fault and my own stupid mistakes.
But there is also a world outside your door and it’s a dog eat dog world out there. You never know what is going to happen next. You have to be prepared for the unexpected.
None of us know if we will live or die the next day. And then I realized I could give people the answers to life because after failing so many times and also finding success in certain areas, I began to see patterns. I began to understand systems. I began to see the way life itself is designed like a game.
As a video game designer and as someone who studies strategy and design, I started to observe people more carefully. I started analyzing behaviors, reflecting on my own actions and trying to improve myself, my character, my emotional growth and my spiritual development.
And eventually I came to a conclusion that if I have learned anything through all of this, it is that the more I know, the more I realize I don’t. I need to share my mistakes, my experiences and the designs I have discovered so that others can learn from them as well.
Life happens in stages. They are experiences that every person must go through and overcome, each at different times in their lives. Many people believe it is impossible to move forward or improve their lives, but yes it is possible. You just can never give up!
Life is hard but you must keep walking your path, stay true to yourself, pray to God and do the best you can. Never stop believing in yourself. Let my experiences become learning lessons for others because wise people learn from the mistakes of others so they don’t repeat the same failures.
What I truly want is simply to express myself.
What you are about to read are parts of my life, my memoirs, my manifesto, the most real, genuine, raw parts of it. I want people to see the truth, the reality, the struggles that one must face in order to move forward and pursue their dreams. I am just one in a sea of billions.
For me, this is art therapy.
This is how I release my thoughts. This is how I take all the negativity, the darkness and the toxic energy out of my head and put it somewhere else. I don’t want to keep that toxicity inside of me anymore. I want it written down. I want it expressed. I want it documented. Somewhere I can read it. Somewhere others can read it too, learn from it and maybe find guidance through it.
That is what I truly want to do with this website.
I want to show my life in detail with photos, videos and proof of the things that have happened to me. Not for attention, but for inspiration. For motivation. So that others can continue pursuing their own dreams. People can understand where I came from, what I went through and who I really am. I am here to move forward, to help others and to continue building something meaningful.
Everything you will read here is real. All names have been changed so that people focus on the lessons rather than the individuals involved.
A chaotic chapter of friendship, love, betrayal, and loss finally comes to an end as old wounds are healed and I begins rebuild my life by moving forward.
Facing challenges, past consequences and shifting relationships, everything begins to crack, forcing a reevaluation of life and what needs to be rebuilt.
Our protagonist moves through years of chaos, love and growth, meeting someone who feels different from the start but never fully choosing her. As time passes, other relationships come and go, yet she lingers in the background like a question that refuses to fade. When life brings them back together, he understands what she meant and gives it a chance.
Clarity arrives where emotions once lived. What felt like destiny was only a lesson. They weren’t meant to last, only to shape each other into who they needed to become. It’s a story about timing, illusion and realizing that not every love is meant to stay, some are only meant to teach.
